Yesterday, I took an extremely hot shower, the kind where you just continue to stand under the water for a long time after you are clean. I like a shower that is, in my husband’s parlance, “hot enough to steep tea,” which…yes, is accurate. This isn’t all that great for my skin or my sinuses, but it’s very enjoyable while it’s happening.
Typically I am a 7-minute shower person. I’m not a coal miner so how dirty can I even get? But I stood in there for a good long while, just doing nothing and thinking nothing. I feel very tired a lot of the time, lately.
It seems like, possibly, nobody is doing all that well right now. If you are doing well, you are to be congratulated (this is an extremely Gilded Age joke) but I think you might be the exception.
A lot of us are “coping.” Some of us, probably, have personal stuff that takes up all our time and attention and chases off the Dread. Me, I switch between two or three Main Dreads. For variety!
For a long while, almost two months, I didn’t touch anything related to quilting. Last Friday I got very annoyed at a work thing and had an outsized reaction about it, so I went into my sewing room and opened up a log cabin quilt kit I’ve had sitting around for a while. I sewed two quilt blocks and after an hour of just squinting at quarter-inch seams, I felt much more clear-headed about how to handle the work thing.
A week or so later I have completed 12 of 24 planned quilt blocks and if you were to guess my quilting efficiency is in direct correlation to work idiocy…well, you’d be right.
What else can I tell you?
I go through these jags where I am very disciplined w/r/t my morning and evening skincare. I am doing the regimen, I am wearing the eye masks. This will – for a vanishingly brief time – carry over into things like cleaning up the kitchen before going to bed, emptying the dishwasher promptly, and staying on top of the laundry. I’m every woman, it’s all in me! Hear me roar! This is my fight song!
And then in about five days’ time, I am back to
This picture is a stand-in for several bad habits, including eating 1-3 Cadbury Roses instead of an adult human breakfast, staring at Instagram Reels for 30-45 minutes in the manner of Elaine clapping at tires, and spending $40 to have bagel sandwiches Door Dashed (okay I have done this TWICE and I know it is ridiculous but that amount includes my husband’s sandwich as well as the tip!!!!).
I got my act together enough (mostly) to host family Easter dinner and it took a lot out of me. The next day I felt like I might be coming down with covid or an ague just slowly encroaching death, but it subsided after the possibly-too-hot shower. I do not have covid, I am just a dumb bitch with terrible taste.